Jeanette Winterson on Why We Read – Brain Pickings

by Joseph K. Clark

“A book must be the ax for the frozen sea inside us,” Kafka wrote to his childhood friend just as he was setting out on a life of making and honing axes of words. I have always been struck by his metaphor — the glorious truth of its tenor and the horrific violence of its vehicle. A good book is indeed a profound transformation, and there can be violence in how it awakens us from the trance of near life. Still, it is often a transformation of great subtlety and tenderness — an act of healing, a self-salvation, a self-creation. “Books and stories are medicine, plaster casts for broken lives and hearts, slings for weakened spirits,” Anne Lamott wrote in her lovely letter to children a century after Kafka. As a child, Jane Goodall read herself into her unexampled life. As a girl cusping into adulthood, Helen Fagin read herself alive through the Holocaust.

We read for countless reasons, and books transform us in numerous ways, reckoned and unreckoned. We read how we live — with our whole selves, with the flickering constellation of values, longings, traumas, joys, hopes, despairs, formative experiences, and half-remembered impressions composing the self. We read with our whole being, but we also read ourselves into being as each book quietly reconfigures the constellation with its cosmogony of ideas and the emotional voyage on which it takes us so that we emerge from it a different self. That, too, is how love transforms us.

Jeanette Winterson

Jeanette Winterson — one of the finest writers and thinkers of our time, a maker of axes and lifelines welded and woven of words — takes up the subject of why we read, a matter on which a reader is tempted to think nothing novel could be said, with uncommon splendor of insight in the introduction to the Audible edition of her 1985 classic Oranges Are Not the Only Fruit (public library).

Winterson begins where books begin — in the life and mind of the author, a fact so essential we have grown blind to its magic: How is it that a single person’s experience can become raw material for something that speaks to generations of strangers, something that shapes selves radically different from the author’s and each other’s? She considers what it takes to write from a deeply personal place in a way that bridges the abyssal divide between consciousnesses:

The trick is to turn your life into something that has meaning for people whose experience is nothing like yours. Write what you know is good advice. Reading what you don’t know is better advice. The unknown in life — the unknown in ourselves, the unknowns of the world — is always a double-edged sword of thrill and terror. The secret in literature, Winterson observes, in accordance with the central fact of life — the fact that we are always figuring ourselves forward in an uncertain universe — becomes a safe vessel from which to explore the uncharted territories of our knowledge and our self-knowledge:

Reading is an adventure. Adventures are about the unknown. When I started to read thoughtfully, I was excited and comforted at the same time. Literature is a mix of unfamiliarity and recognition. The situation can take us anywhere — across time and space, the globe, through the lives of people who can never be like us — into the heart of anguish we have never felt — crimes we could not commit. Yet as we travel deeper into the strange world of the story, the feeling we get is of being understood — which is odd when you think about it because, at school, learning is based on whether or not we know what we are reading. Ithe story (or the poem) is understanding us. Books read us back to ourselves.

In a sentiment particularly resonant to those of us who read ourselves through complex lives, and out of them, and into improbable new lives, Winterson counsels on how to best read for self-transformation: One of the things the story teaches us is this: Read yourself as a fiction as well as a fact. Growing up poor in a poor place with a pair of Pentecostal parents waiting for Jesus to return and roll-up time and space like a scroll, I never thought my life was narrow or my chances bleak. I thought I was Heathcliff, Huck Finn, Hotspur, Aladdin, the Big Bad Wolf. The Fish with a Golden Ring.

And later, when I had left home at sixteen and was living in a Mini, I had my favorite books stashed in the boot, and whenever I could be in the library, I was there. This wasn’t a fantasy world or escapism — though it was an escape, it was the hidden door in the blank wall. I opened the book and went through it. Open it. The flight into another story reminds us that we are another story.

Not caught, confined, predestined, or only one gender or passion. Learning to read yourself as fiction and a fact is liberating — it is the difference between energy and mass. Mass is the beloved object — the world we can touch and feel — but the mass is also the dead weight in ourselves and others. Shifting the dead weight takes energy, but the dead weight is energy at its atomic core. Transforming mass into energy and energy into the group is what creative work is about. An idea becomes embodied. A tragedy is released.

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